Before You (or a search engine) Diagnose Yourself!

Working jobs in industries that I had no passion for sucked the life-force out of me and I suffered weekly with the Sunday Sads in anticipation of my upcoming work week. Business pressures kept me awake at night and made me miserable! During this time, the strong desire to pursue a career in holistic health was already pulling on my heart strings. I wanted to pursue my mission to inspire people to believe in the medicinal healing powers of a nutrient-dense diet.

I was riddled with fear and embarrassment to make a career change since I had exactly what I thought I wanted and what looked good on the resume. So, I would reach out to my friends and family for support and advice - which was more like external validation - as to what I should do. One day someone said to me, “you can’t keep changing the outside to change the inside” - implying that a career change wouldn’t equate to more happiness. This was the best and worst advice ever given to me.

Initially, this advice worked against me as I was left feeling that I needed to fix my broken self from the inside out in order to experience the changes I wanted to make in my life. I spent years reading 100’s of self-help books, setting excessive goals, over working, and even diagnosing myself with the support of Google. I was mean to myself and had a belief that I was broken. I thought if I could just be better and do better THEN I could finally have the life I wanted. I was desperately and obsessively trying to earn, earn, earn it all.

Well said Sigmund!

This distorted thinking kept me living with a lot of things I didn’t like for too long. It kept me from honoring my emotional and mental health which kept me from feeling that I was allowed to express any negative emotion. It kept me from setting healthy boundaries in my relationships and it kept me a magnet for narcissists. And worst of all, my indecisiveness gave more power to other people’s opinions than my own. I knew what changes I wanted but I let it all slip away.

The bi-product of living with fear-based thinking and suppressing emotions sunk deep into my body and manifested into symptoms of insomnia and adrenal fatigue that I mention in my bio. This was my “wake up” call to finally start listening to my intuition and pursue the changes I wanted to make.

I successfully reversed my symptoms when I accepted that there was never anything wrong with me - nothing ever clinical, that is. After I spent $7000 with a Functional Medicine Doctor on brain imaging to find out that my symptoms weren’t clinical but functional - I was finally released from a prison of self-doubt that was sponsored by limiting beliefs I adopted from my family of origin. Yes, I had nutritional deficiencies, gut issues and hormonal imbalances but those are reversable - which I successfully did without the use of chemical medicine. I finally realized was that my brain and my body were not the problem - they were the answer. Ultimately, the health issues I was experiencing was from ignoring my intuition and allowing fear (Ego) and other people’s opinions drive my decision making. So, I gave myself permission to finally be myself and to honor my true emotions!

I think we all know in theory that our emotions have a significant impact on our physical health. But do we all know how to answer the call that is manifesting as physical symptoms? I sure didn’t back then. I kept myself busy with work and proving my worth because slowing down was too emotionally painful. You may learn from me and my experience before you misdiagnose yourself the way I did. If or when you’re experiencing symptoms of poor sleep or depression, for example, I suggest you consider all energetic culprits possibly causing this. This isn’t a form of blame or deflection but ‘inventory management’. All physical dis-ease requires both a biochemical and energetic approach to healing. Is it toxic overload from processed/restaurant food or that not-so-innocent evening glass of chemical laden wine? Is it a nutritional deficiency? Is it the actual band-aid solution that’s providing a false sense of relief today? Habitual/unconscious negative thinking? Unchecked forgiveness? Unmetabolized anger? Lack of Spirituality? Lack of emotional connectedness in your relationships? Ignoring your Higher Self? Codependent giving? Most likely, it’s a combination of things and will require a holistic makeover for your body, mind, and Spirit.

And lastly, the advice worked for me by bringing the darkness to light. Experiencing contrast awakens our desire as to what we want in our lives. The issues of poor health and everything else I didn’t like in my life back then was a true test of Faith - and like a northern star pointing me to my grandeur plan. Of course as I reflect back, it all makes a whole(istic) lot of sense as to who I am today! Inspiring people through nutrition comes easy to me. I love it! And because I had my own issues with health, I have an incredible amount of compassion for people who are experiencing undesirable symptoms. I love working with people that believe but.don’t.believe.enough in the interconnectedness between the integrity of our inner physical terrain and the external circumstances in our lives - because I was once that person.

And I’m loving my weekends now - I never get the Sunday Sads.

Healthy Regards!

Angela